I don't know why, but I'm going to explain this thing from the beginning to myself to see if I can get something from it. Maybe I can find the answer. At summer camp, I kept dreaming about him getting into danger, and then I always had to save him. There have been worse dreams than that one about Shoshanna, like about people trying to kill him and stuff like that. When I did he go to hug me or something of that sort and I would get this overwhelming feeling of dread and terror. All I wanna do is run. I would sneak out my my barracks and go run. Now, I love Travis and all, he’s like a little brother to me. He’s annoying, but he can be pretty cool once he let’s out his inner human being. A counselor I’ve been talking to over the phone, she’s from my old school back in Jersey, told me that it was because I was afraid of falling in love with him. That’s why I get that feeling every time I have those dreams or when he makes physical contact with me. But like I told her, I just can’t ever see Travis and I together. Richard’s it, he’s the one for me. At one point in time, many a long time ago, I may have been able to see it. But me and Travis? It’s like a wet puzzle piece, it may have once fit, but it doesn’t anymore. I couldn’t stop thinking about him the whole time I was there. Everywhere we went as a platoon, I kept thinking something bad was going to happen to him, so I’d try to stay close. But I’d also have to keep my distance and avoid eye contact, because I came close to passing out several times just because of that feeling. As a Pisces, I have a bit of a stronger psychic intuition than others, and I get dead on vibes all of the time, but never one this strong. I have to talk to him about it sometime, because all of what I just told you, I told who I thought was a friend of mine. Before I knew it, it was all over our platoon, and everyone knew about it. She had turned it around somewhere though and people think I have some mondo crush on him and I don’t. I’m just getting a vibe. But if I don’t talk to him myself, I don’t even want to think about which rumor he’ll get from someone else. And if he gets a rumor, and if it comes from someone else a rumor it will be, Richard will get the same story. I wanted to handle this on my own, but I’m going to have to tell Travis no matter what. I hope I don’t have to tell Richard because I don’t think he’ll understand or he’ll take it the wrong way or something and I don’t want this to affect us. I love him too much. I really wish this would all go away. But I know my vibes, and they are never something I can ignore because they all mean something, and I would never forgive myself if something were to happen to Travis. Ever. I consider him my friend, whether or not he considers me one of his, and I feel it is my duty to protect him.