I am just not having a good day today. Summer camp as completely changed my life. I hate the civilian life now. All I want is a military environment. It's the only place where I can be happy, be myself, and thrive. Now that I'm home, I'm so depressed and bored all the time. Nothing interests or challenges me. There's still that little problem with Travis I need to talk to him about if he'll ever listen to me(yeah, well I doubt it). Was that just an ICP slip? Slap myself! Anyways, this Travis tihng is going to keep bothering me until I talk to Travis and thus talk to a counselor, and thus (hopefully this don't have to happen and I don't think it will) talk to Richard. This is all Autumn's fault for opening her big mouth and telling everybody everything I tell her. I trusted her with this problem and she goes and tells every guy in C-2nd platoon. I'm completely in shock that Travis don't know yet. But I'd rather him hear the truth from me about what's going on than some souped up rumor from Brooks or someone. I had another dream about him last night. (Does it ever stop?) Anyways, he met some blonde chick when me and him and Richard was at some party. I had a bad feeling about her. Later on I realized who she was. She was Shoshanna, a pimpette if I ever knew one who kept boys as pets. She played men and had no remorse for it. She started hitting on Travis, but I didn't say anything to him because he would have gotten mad at me and he hates me enough as it is. I pulled her away from him as they were talking and took her aside. We got into this heated argument and I told her to back the hell away and if she hurt my friend there would be hell to pay. She was all, "Well I've changed Xena freak, I don't want him for his money. I'll just make him fall in love with me and use him for sex. Of course that would get boring, so I'll make you a deal. I'll keep him, oh say 2 weeks." Then she whispered in my ear, "Maybe you should stay away from him you impure outcast!" And then she bit my ear! Hard. Then I decked her. Hard. Travis overheard the whole thing. He came over to see if I was ok and went to hug me and I ran. Faster than I ever had. Scared the shit out of me. This is the only private entry I have on this whole diary. I have always made all of my entries public. I have a feeling this ain't the last one with all that's going on. I'll write more tomorrow, but it's like 2AM and I'm tired.